Saturday, February 18, 2012

Poems~Promised and stay strong =) it's a attempt! :D


Written by: Nichelle kercher

I miss you,

You don’t have a clue.

You were my bestfriend,

Now my heart is in two.

I think about you constantly,

I know it was for the better,

But you were so kind, and amazing.

I know you’re in a better place,

But you were too young.

I know I need to move on,

It is what you would want.

You would want me to be happy,

Living life,

And smiling.

But I can’t wait for the day I see you again-

And We can run, eat, and swim just like I promised to you.

Breathe easy, and get your running skills up…

Because I promised.


Stay strong

Written by: Nichelle kercher

I have this illness,

That I have suffered from for so long.

And I don't know how
but I've got to find a way to stay strong,
I wish I could get over it really quick
It just causes so much pain and sadness
I just wish I could stay strong

It really hurts,

Because I don’t know what’s wrong.

I feel worse and worse,

And things keep going wrong.

I know I need to stay strong, But tell me How?

Monday, February 6, 2012

Day 20~Meaning behind my blog name.

Well there is no real meaning.

13 is Taylor swifts favorite number and 13 dreams 13 wishes kinda played into my MAW :P that is all..

Friday, February 3, 2012

Day 18~10 things that irritate me

ooooh this is gonna be fun to write haha Please know this is not about anyone,just stuff that can etither Irritate me a lot or a little XD

1.The teen girls who post pictures on facebook with the caption of"Ugh why did i upload this!? I look SO ugly." Seriously? If you really thought you were ugly you wouldn't have uploaded the pic,duh!

2. People who seek attention. This is gonna sound really mean of me,please no I'm not mean ok? I mean like the people who fake there illnesses. I'm talking like those past few news articles( I'm talking about this one,this one only too) It's like "alright so you'r gonna fake having cancer..Alright so amazing of you isn't it?" Really wrong to do it..

3. People who SMACK there gum. Ugh.

4. Those who post the constant "FML" statuses. For example

Monday:"FML I failed math."
Tuesday:"FML I lost my phone."
Wednsday:"Hurt my ankle,FML"
See why it's annoying? I mean we all have bad days,it's okay to Post FML every once in a while,but everyday and like 30 times a day? You should just talk to a friend,facebook isn't good at advice. XD

5. People who steal my writings. There is a reason why I didn't share my writings for years. People who steal them!! And here is my on the spot letter to them:
Dear people,
Please don't steal my writings. I can help you write,but stealing my stuff Will only get you reported to the copyright infringement company(if it's copyrighted work) and on my no-likey list. So please don't steal,contact me to help instead!
Love always,Nichelle.

6. Those one facebook who post like this:
Monday(in a relationship):"Oh i love you so much --------"
Tuesday(It's complicated):"Why does he always does this? FML"
Wensday(Single): Boy suck,who needs them?
Thursday(in a relationship with the same boy):"oh my gawd I'm in loveee!)

yeah. Nuff said.

7. Bullys. My letter to them:

You suck. Please be nice.

8.(Almost there haha tired of my ranting yet?) POLITICS!! It irritates me beyond belief.

9. How hateful people are to the following:
LGBT community
etc.etc. My message? Shut up and get a life and stop hating. Be nice,it gets you far. It realllly does.

10(done!) K...prepare yourself..Ready? People are our loud when my head hurts and i tell them to please be quiet. ta-da!

Hope i entertained you all.

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Feeding tube awareness week!

It's feeding tube awareness week! and although i dont have one A.I did have 2 at one point when i was admitted and B. So many of my friends do!!

Imagine if you woke up morning and couldn't eat without extreme pain and throwing up?

Imagine getting a tube pushed down your nose.

Imagine getting a tube placed into your stomach.

Imagine Never eating again.

So many of my friends deal with this. When i had my 2 NGs it wasnt *that* big deal because One was for Go-lytly and the other for Venting so it was only for a few days. But my friends have had theres for years. YEARS!!!

Where your only nutrion is Baby type formula through a bag that pumps into your stomach.
Sometimes people can't even handle Feeds so they have a Line placed into a major artery for TPN and/or Fluids.

It's time to make awareness for Feeding tubes and the reasons to get them Including Gastroparesis,Crohn's,Anoxreia(Eating disorders in general),Malnutrion,Premeture birth, cancer the lists goes on and on.

Please watch this video:

And "Like" this facebook page and show your suport!!

PS: I love my tubie friends XD

Day 15~Something you don't leave the house with

I don't leave the house with my lovely Nook(Never know when your gonna get bored),DS and if needed my Laptop,Gel pen(s) and a notebook. :D Pretty much i never leave the house without my backpack...

Monday, January 30, 2012

Day 14~Favorite TV shows.

Best show,Hand dows. *then cries because O'mally is in this picture And Izzie...* ;(

Yes. :)

yay for house!! :D

Sunday, January 29, 2012

by Michelle Watt

Feel free to share this, post it to your blog, or whatever you think is right.

It is very difficult to write something as blunt and honest as this will be, without unintentionally upsetting or insulting someone. I would like to take this time and let it be known that my intentions of writing this are only for the best, and by no means do I intend to hurt anyone in anyway.

It does not matter what the name(s) of my disorder(s) may be. What matters is not the diagnosis, but the effects of living with a serious, chronic health condition.

First of all, an important term to know is "chronic." Chronic does not mean occasionally; nor does it mean often. It means always; never-ending; and relentless. There is no escape from an illness that is chronic, and oftentimes a chronic illness means a lifelong illness. That one speaks for itself, I think.

There is a different vocabulary spoken by those of us who live with such conditions.

When we say we are sick, it may mean a number of things. Most often, it means we are struggling with a flare-up, a relapse, or having a bad day in general. Then again, occasionally, sick means we've actually caught a virus like a cold or a flu; the kind that actually leaves us rejoicing slightly because it means we have NORMAL, treatable symptoms. Yes, that is comically pathetic, we know.

When we say we are going to the doctor, it's probably not for a check-up. Most patients with a chronic illness haven't had a regular check-up for years and years. Why? Well, when you go to the doctor multiple times a week, they have a pretty good idea on what your physical status is. Also, doctor refers to specialist ninety percent of the time. the only time we see our general physicians is when we are required to get a referral through them, or if we run into them on the street.

Next, there are the questions that friends, family members, classmates, teachers, co-workers, and even strangers will ask. We love you and appreciate your kinds, concern, and perhaps even your curiosity, but what we reply with is not always what we want to say.

1.) Are you sick?

What we say: Yes.

What we want to say: From a scientific point of view I'm always sick. (Refer to definition of 'chronic.') I might not be sick how you define sick, but yes. Yes I am.

2.) Are you feeling better?

What we say: Yes/No.

What we really want to say: Maybe compared to yesterday or five minutes ago, but I will never "'feel better.' (Refer to the definition of 'chronic')

3.) What's wrong?

What we say: I'm just not feeling well is all.

What we really want to say: Honey, I've been seeing doctors since the age of two and they still don't know what's wrong.

(A subtopic of this question is, "What happened?" This is always hard to answer for those of us who may be in wheelchairs, using crutches, braces/orthotics, and so on.You see, it's very difficult to explain why, for example, my joints dislocate for seemingly no reason, or why I'm limping or unable to move at all. Typically I'll say something like, "I was born this way," or "Oh, I'm fine," because it's easier than saying, "I have a number of chronic illness and physical disadvantages caused by a genetic medical condition that causes my connective tissue to be faulty, and connective tissue makes up the majority of your body, so yeah.")

4.) Are you contagious?

What we say: (Politely) No, of course not!

What we really want to say: Violence is not the answer...violence is not the answer...violence is not the answer...

One of the most important things to know about chronic illnesses is the whole pity thing:


No, chronic pain, discomfort, or dysfunction is not fair. It never was, and it never will be. We know this. You need to know this. Do not make pity noises or faces at someone who is dealing with a chronic illness. Don’t say “I wish it was me going through this,” or “I’m so sorry!” Yeah, we know. But the truth is, you don’t want to be going through this, and how can you be sorry if it’s not your fault? It’s no one’s fault. Don’t apologize.

Most importantly…

From those of us who live with chronic and invisible illnesses….

You need to believe us.It will seem absolutely unreal to imagine going through life the way we do. Life made up of neverending pain, discomfort, medicine, doctors, needles, hospitals… it goes on and on. We’ve lived our lives like this for so long and it still seems unreal on some days. And yet for the most part, we look perfectly normal on the outside.

Because of the rare few who fake having a chronic illness, we are put in a very difficult situation – if you can’t see it, how do you know it’s there? Nobody can see chronic pain. We can see what that pain does, but we cannot see what it looks like. There are no broken bones or open wounds

You know, I can’t even put into words how it feels to be called on lying about something like this. And we all go through it. There is always going to be someone who thinks we are faking, imagining, exaggerating, or even taking advantage of our illness to manipulate others.

To those who think that, the only thing we can (nicely) say is:

You poor, ignorant, fools.

Open your heart. Open your mind. We all have our challenges, and no one’s are greater than another’s. Accept who you are, and who others are. Appreciate everything you have, because it makes you, you.

And most importantly, love.

Just love.